How Atheism Led me to Islam

I’m a 22-year-old brother who grew up Christian and considered myself atheist at 18. I didn’t really have a specific reason but I just didn’t feel the need of a God nor did I see any real “evidence”. After a year or so I would occasionally spend maybe a few hours a month researching God’s…

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I’m a 22-year-old brother who grew up Christian and considered myself atheist at 18. I didn’t really have a specific reason but I just didn’t feel the need of a God nor did I see any real “evidence”. After a year or so I would occasionally spend maybe a few hours a month researching God’s existence, more specifically Jesus. I didn’t see anything that stuck out to me; so I gave up at around 20.

Shortly after turning 20, I started realising how complex reality as we know it is as well as the universe; so I started researching again, but a bit more frequently. I started watching online content, a majority of them atheist, and would spend maybe an hour a day watching them. I would look at the different arguments of atheist and they seemed so reliable that I built a bias towards atheist evidence that any evidence of theist I would easily “debunk” as an atheist using contradicting arguments from atheist. You may notice I’m using the term atheist as well as I’m repeating I watched a lot of atheist. That is a problem.

Around 21 I had a thought one day “You know what? I sure do seem biased towards atheist content”. I finally realised that I needed to start looking at the opposite side, from the theist. More on this at the end, this is very important! I started looking into Christianity, who believe Jesus is God, after realising that the Bible had an excessive amount of contradictions I spent a few months looking into other religions. I had a bad view towards Muslims and found a video of a Muslim lecture from a popular YouTube channel, I listened to it and it completely changed my view so I checked Islam out.

After a few weeks I noticed that from what I have seen so far that the Qur’ān has zero contradictions. I had gotten seriously interested that I finally found a religion with a book that had no contradictions and has never been changed.

I started watching a popular scholar who talked science in the Qur’ān and after researching what I learned from him myself I realised there must be a connection. But I couldn’t quite connect the two enough to commit myself. My iman wasn’t there. I still didn’t think I believed in God. I continued for a bit less than a year as an agnostic and started watching a popular Muslim YouTuber who talked a lot about the Kalam Cosmological Argument, basically that implies that everything that begins to exist has cause, the universe began to exist, therefore the universe has a cause. (By the way, no person in the history of mankind has provided one example of anything that doesn’t rely on something, they try time and time again but fail to do so!)

After researching that I finally found something that connected God with the Qur’ān. Or so I thought. I read a blog post from an atheist who “debunked” that by using an argument that the universe could be infinite so I started researching that myself and rest assured, nothing, not a single thing can be infinite. It’s scientifically impossible and goes against reality itself. An existence cannot be bigger than itself. Infinity must be bigger than itself, but it doesn’t exist anyway, it’s just an idea made up in our heads. Sound familiar atheist? So we have a universe that has a cause, that cannot be infinite, that relies on something spaceless, timeless, immaterial, all powerful and personal, that sounds like God to me.

That grabbed my attention and I started researching the scientific miracles in the Qur’ān, in which it has a huge abundance of, and I was astonished. I watched endless amounts of debates online only to never see the Muslim fail. He always had an answer straight from the Qur’ān, I had finally found my answer.

Let’s end on a few notes. In order to find God, you must be open minded, searching for the truth, truly being honest with yourself and open to throwing away what you want for that. Remember how I mentioned that an atheist tends to research data from atheist, and only atheist? The majority of atheists only view atheist biased data, in which case you’re getting half the story. The data they’re getting from other atheists more than not always tends to be from another atheist. They tend to be biased towards them for their own reasons, which only Allah knows, but it’s easy to assume that viewing content of your desired outcome makes you biased.

Let’s use an example. If an atheist likes going to the club, drinking alcohol, living in general a lifestyle that if God were true the atheist would have to give up or suffer the consequences, it’s easy to gravitate to what suits their preferred lifestyle. This is detrimental to finding the truth.

Many times when debating an atheist they will verbally attack you, like believing in God is a terrible thing. This is because they’re misled and it may not fit their lifestyle. They’re not willing to sacrifice their lifestyle for a better one. I once watched a video of a man who said, “I would rather go to hell than worship a God that allows such evil to happen in this world!” But they cannot comprehend that if you understood everything God did, he would not be God. Remember, God knows best. So I’ll end on this. Have an open mind and allow yourself to sacrifice your not so good lifestyle for a better one.

Let’s get this straight, God is real, and it’s the most important thing in existence. Nothing on Earth is more important than following God. This is not to stereotype atheist; many atheists are good people and would lend a helping hand to anyone. But from my experience this is what I’ve observed, especially from the ones who research it immensely. They tend to be more biased. Some atheists will go to any length and try to pull out every argument they can, they’ll let any evidence go through one ear and out the other. It doesn’t have to be so complicated, you don’t need 1 million arguments. Just a few good ones! May Allah guide everyone to the straight path. Salam! (Islam Unity)